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In-Between Time

wheatWhat do you do with in-between time?   The time between the creation and idea of a dream and it’s completion?  It can be confusing and disruptive when we are living out the dream or plan in front of us and it’s suddenly derailed.   The questions and confusion hit immediately.   Did I…?  Should I have…?   What might have…?

Walter Brueggemann wrote that the Psalms could be divided into three types:

  • Orientation
  • Disorientation
  • Reorientation

I’ll share a story from my own life of this process.

1. Move to Bend, OR feeling and hearing that God is going to take care of a piece of real estate I owned, knowing that if it’s not sold it could sink us financially.   ORIENTATION:  God’s given the clear green light to go – we go.

2. House doesn’t sell, job doesn’t cover bills, wife doesn’t get teaching position we were counting on, moving to a new home after 35 years in one place is NOT easy…  DISORIENTATION: God isn’t paying attention, I didn’t hear him right, He’s not there, I need to fix it, God sucks.

It’s in the Disorientation that we grow. In fact, thank God for these times.   I read a quote in the book I’m reading right now that states “the most important time is between the dreams, not the dreams themselves.”

3. So disorientation gives way to REORIENTATION: We’re okay, things are as we expected but we’re more aware of the need for daily surrender and trust in what God is giving, we’re communicating more about finances and living with more discipline and through it all, learning to be more generous.

Thanks God.   Sorry for all the mean stuff I said about you last year.

How bout you?  What do you do in the in-between time?

We all have these times.  Try to look for the opportunity and grow.    Know that DISORIENTATION is a natural part of maturing.  Embrace it as best you can.

Hitting the Wall

My wife and I watched a great movie this weekend. Run Fat Boy Run. It’s about a guy that leaves his pregnant wife at the altar for a whole lot of jacked up reasons, numero uno cause he’s a poser, but mainly he’s scared that he’s not enough of a man for her. We pick the story up 5 years later where he is working to get her back and through the course of the story realizes that he needs to change, to commit to what he says he’s going to do and be and it’s all played out around this idea of him running his first marathon (in 3 weeks, having never run before!!)

I digress…

Towards the end there’s this scene where the main character “hits the wall” in his first marathon. Now, I’ve never hit the wall in a run, but I’ve definitely hit it in life.

Paul writes, “But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish that I may gain Christ.”

There’s the wall.

This is one of those ancient texts that just isn’t easy for us to swallow. I say I believe those words and yet when push comes to shove, I don’t really act like it. Rubbish? Do I really consider everything in my life as second to Christ? And not just second but far enough down the priority list to be counted as LOSS, liability, crap? That’s what’s so hard. I believe the verse, but don’t always connect that belief to my actions. What I’ve got to remember is that I don’t have to figure it all out and I don’t have to do it all on my own. Philippians 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (there’s another one of those verses…) And so I trust and push against the wall with all my might – knowing that in reality, it’s not my strength that will cause the wall to crumble but His.